January 2009
43 posts
I feel as though today was productive.
I was supposed to have started all of my errands hours before I did, however, they are all done.
I went and got my car cleaned, it’s so cute, I stopped by forever21 to see if the had any coats, they didn’t. I called my stupid school to find out about dropping a class.
All that is left to do is clean the bottom half of the house while watching...
Hello Friday, it’s nice to see you!.
Dreams of teeth breaking and blood..
Someone that I know is going to die..
& I think I know who.
When I am on AIM, there is always someone that feels compelled to tell me that they are bored. When I ask them what it is they want me to do about them being bored, they almost always respond with “entertain me”.
I hate when people say “entertain me” it makes me feel like a dirty prostitute.
Someone used my hand as an ashtray today.
It stings & it burns.
“Starting to give up my hope,
my heart is out of shape,
can’t get up the...”
– Charels Hamilton.
“Can I have faith in luck?
Is this space enough?
Are we awake in lust,
Sleep...”
– Charles Hamilton.
This ink itch is going to bring me deeper into...
lostinspacetimewhatever:
I can feel it. Half sleeve in two weeks? Yeah I think so. The goal is to have a total of 10 tats by December. Possible? I think so. :D
Music and tats are such an expensive habit.
All of your talk about ink has got me over here really fiending for another, I just got one like 24 days ago. I am thinking that by my birthday I’ll have another one.
When I was younger my parents told me that if I slept on a mattress without sheets I would get wingworm and centipedes would come out and eat me. I wonder if they knew that my greatest fear in life would be bugs, or that this fable would become an irrational fear.
I wish I knew why GODD put me here,
what is it that I am supposed to be doing.
I mean, I am here, but now what?
I sure hope I am not the only one in the world that was put here without an obvious purpose.
I am going to drop a class.
It is asking a bit much on top of my other classes,
I am afraid that this makes me a failure.
But I’d rather drop it now, than fail and bring my GPA down.
30 to 40 page term paper on top of two other 20 page term papers.
That’s a no go.
Me: Hello?
Him: Hey, can we talk.
Me: Sure, yea, what's up.
Him: What are you doing?
Me: about to go to sleep.
Him: Do you think I could stop by, I need to talk to you.
Me: uhhhhhhh...
Him: It will only take a minute I'm already on my way.
Me: are you shitting me right now?
Him: no.
Me: I don't feel well, it wasn't a good day, it's no good.
Him: please..
Me: I can't believe you are pulling this fucking shit right now, are you lit?
Him: is my answer going to affect your answer.
Me: perhaps..
Him: i'm not.
Me: fine..
Him: i'll be there in five..
Me: fine.
Happy birthday Ma!
Wishbones, Horseshoes, & Basketball by Charles...
Sometimes I get this feeling as though I am stuck.
Like, I am not going forward or backward, just here, in this spot.
I suppose it is better than falling behind, but I would much rather be climbing forward.
I feel like I am living, & that is all good and well, butI want to feel alive.
Maybe it’s the season, I feel like it’s the season.
I feel better when the sun is out, when...
ma.
My mother.
My mother is a beautiful person both inside and out, and not one more so than the other. She is a woman of her word, and at the end of the day all you have is your word. She has enstilled in me things that I hope will make me into a fraction of the woman that she is. I do not know many girls who have relationships with their mothers as strong as mine and mothers is, and I know that...
Someone buy me connect four.
& while you are at it, finding my Mancala would be delightful.
Mickey Factz
&Charles Hamiliton
&Wale
& a little KiD CuDi
& a little more Asher Roth
& a little less B.o.B.
all that I have been BLASTING on my ipod all day.
hip hop you make me so happy.
let’s be together forever.
“Compassion alone stands apart from the continuous traffic between good and evil...”
– Eric Hoffer.
I have OCD, but my want for people to now know how badly I have it, keeps my performing of what I know to be irrational rituals to a minumum. Until, I am alone. Some of the things that I do are probably harmful [well, not harmful, but definately not helpful] to the enviornment.
Here is a list of some of the things that I do.
1. The car stereo has to end in eight, be a factor of eight, or be...
If I Love You.
if i love You
(thickness means
worlds inhabited by roamingly
stern bright faeries
if you love
me) distance is mind carefully
luminous with innumerable gnomes
Of complete dream
if we love each (shyly)
other, what clouds do or Silently
Flowers resembles beauty
less than our breathing
e. e. cummings.
I am absolutely in love with the fact that because I have big boobs and a big ass it’s assumed that I am a slut, and because the afrementioned is assumed that means that people can touch me in any way they see fit and they can make ridiculous comments about my body. I think it is so wondeful, personally I like hearing the lesser gender make comments about every which way they can fuck me...
There was no tangible evidence to prove the theory of there being a black hole until 2001.
Scientists say that more is known about the moon than about the deep seas, which in a minute way supports the theory of the bermuda triangle being a black hole that exists on earth.
x
=]
I love the history channel.
I love pbs too, and just for fuckies, I love kqed too.
Especially when they have specials on the universe, I get so geeked for shit like that
.
There is a special about alcatraz tonight, I feel as though I could host it being as how I’ve been to that place 12 times (no lie, I swear).
My aunt bought this pbs DVD called THE UNIVERSE & if you watch it on...
“All you have to do is open your ears & close your eyes.”
– Michelle,
my best friends kid sister.
Fact:
Einstein’s brain was 15% larger than the average humans is, although it was missing the region that is responsible for speech, which is why he was 3 when he finally learned to speak.
“The Bible tells us how to go to heaven, not how the heavens go.”
– Galileo The Universe on the History Channel.
“Stars chasing across the sky each night were merely an illusion created by the...”
– Narrator on The Universe on the History Channel.
I ain't told no one else, but you.
I am going to attempt to say this without sounding like a goofball and preteen with a major crush.
I feel that in order to get to where I am at now, I must share with you where I was at before. I am the type of girl that is a serial crusher. I like boys for two weeks, and then move onto the next one. I have often been compared to having the emotions of a boy when it comes to relationships...
I'll be over here waiting, waiting, for you.
So, recently I was turned on to the works of Static Major [rest in peace] & I for one, think that he is an absolute genius. His music is amazing, and he died before he could imerge as a front runner. His past works include writting and producing ‘Rock the Boat’, ‘Pony’, ‘So Anxious’, and other songs that are staples to R&B. I strongly reccomend that...
I can be patient
Well, I think that things are beyond getting jinxx’d. So tomorrow, after I wake, after having realized tonight wasn’t a dream I am definately say what I want to say.
I wish I could write what i really want to write, but I can’t, because I am afraid that I will jinxx it.
sighhhhhhh.
“Mo, you can do whatever your cold, little, black heart desires.”
– My pop, to me in conversation today after I expressed how badly I wanted to do well in my classes.
Crazy Baby
& to think lying next to you was enough.
Converstaion alone was compensation for touch.
But you got to realize that it’s hard to understand,
All the feelings inside, cuz darlin I’m just a man.
You know,
Never purposely hurt you, mislead you, desert you.
I’m tryna make it work, that’s the whole truth.
The key to my lock, no need to soul search you.
The best thing...
I am afraid that this quarter of school is going to overwhelm me, & I don’t mean that in the good way in the least. I mean that I am afraid that one day the stress, anxiety, and worry are all going to catch up to me and make me burst into hysterical tears or cause me to vomit or maybe both. Neither has really ever happened to me, but I am taking all Upper Division/Junior-Senior...
“There’s something about seeing pictures of him with her, it’s almost like his...”
– Im sorry if it was not appropriate of me to reblog this [just let me know].
After reading that all i could do was sigh, the words just made sense, you captured everything. “Everything feels good even if the world is crumbling around you.” I cant think of a feeling that felt better. ...
I miss the summer.
Laying in bed feeling sticky, Big Gulps [60%ice40%coke] to refresh me, & otter pops.
I have this feeling that something is going to happen or maybe it already happened, I am unsure as to if it is going to be a good thing or a bad things. It’s just that there is this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach, that I want to throw up but know that I won’t feeling. I guess the word to describe it is anxious.
My mom has been telling me for the last three days that I...
Happy New Year.
I am optimistic about the year to come.
I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that I think is trying to tell me that this one will be a good one.
In this upcoming year [i suppose it has already come] I think unlike years before, I am stable. Not that I was very unstable before, but my outlook on life in prior years was somewhat skewed. I know that for a lot of people last year was not a...